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Assalamualaikum

Today is the 21st of Ramadan, which is in the final 10 days of this holy month. Towards the end of Ramadan, we must strive towards finding Lailatul-Qadr. I hope everyone are doing their best to get the most out of this holy month.

This year's Ramadan month is in the month of July. Soon, July will end and comes August. Then, August will end and comes September. As September approaches, that means that the new university session will begin. New things will be learnt, with the basis of previous years knowledge. From SPM to Foundation studies to First year to Second year, and lastly to Third year, I've always been looking forward for the new academic year, knowing that things will always be as I expected.

However, moving to Fourth year of studies feels different. Even though there is still about less than 2 months before the new session starts, but I can already feel what I will feel in 2 months time.

Yes, the new academic year will be different. I might no longer be going to a city in the UK which I used to go there once a month. I may need to find other reasons to visit certain places in the UK several times. Trips throughout UK and Europe will no longer be the same. It will no longer be the same.

Honestly, I feel really sad about it, about these things that happened. It feels more sad because I couldn't do anything to avoid from these things from happening in the first place. Or, it is more on "I didn't do anything" rather than "I couldn't do anything". I could have...should have done something.

Honestly, I think I didn't really and totally grasp and understand what I've learnt in my engineering course throughout this three years, although I managed to achieve good marks. On the other hand, they really do understand what they were learning but (I believe) due to the marking system used in their institutes might have caused their marks.

Even though my time has passed three years ago, but I still feel the responsibility. The responsibility of making sure everything will run smoothly throughout these 5 years. I'm truly sorry that could not fulfil my promises and my responsibility. I'm very sorry.

On a personal note, I strongly believe they will be better engineers in the industry. Generally, being an engineer is all about understanding the concepts and applying them for practical uses.

Regardless of whatever happens in the end of our journey, I have and will always have faith in you guys that all of you will be successful in everything you guys do.
Together We Build The Future.


Wailalliqa' maassalamh.