.kiranyaakutahu.

Assalamualaikum.

Setiap kali aku buka iTunes ni, aku akan biarkan ia dalam mode shuffle dan pelbagai lagu akan dimainkan. Sesekali aku akan terdengar lagu "Di sana Menanti Di sini menunggu" daripada Ukays tidak kurang juga akan mendengar lagu "Your Song" daripada Ellie Goulding. Namun, satu lagu ni mengingatkanku kenangan semasa berusia 10 tahun, tatkala masih di bangku sekolah rendah. Lagu tersebut adalah "Setia Kukorbankan" nyanyian Fauziah Latiff.

Setelah berhempas pulas, akhirnya jumpa juga apa yang ingin dicari. Tajuk drama tu adalah "Kiranya Aku Tahu" atau "Kiranya Ku Tahu". Mana-mana lah. haha. Drama bersiri ini menceritakan perjalanan hidup seorang lelaki yang berjaya sewaktu sekolah dan ditawarkan belajar di United Kingdom. Setibanya di negara orang itu, dia ibarat terkena kejutan budaya dan seterusnya dia turut mengamalkan budaya barat yang amat berbeza dengan budaya di tanah airnya. Dalam masa yang sama, dia mempunyai seorang kekasih di tanah air dan tak silap aku, dia berjanji akan pulang mencarinya setelah tamat pengajian.

Namun, janji tinggal janji. Dia tidak pulang ke tanah air. Setelah tamat pengajian, dia mendapat pekerjaan di Sri Lanka dan berkahwin dengan orang tempatan di situ. Oleh sebab isterinya itu baru memeluk Islam setelah berkahwin dengannya, maka isterinya ini masih mengamalkan cara hidup yang lama. Dalam masa yang sama juga, dia sering mengalami masalah dengan pekerjaannya. Pekerja-pekerjanya mogok dan sebagainya.

Setelah sekian lama dan rambut menjadi sedikit putih, dia pun pulang ke tanah air. Ketika itu, dia sudah bergelar duda. Dia pulang dengan penuh rasa keinsafan. Kebetulan juga ketika dia pulang itu, dia terlihat kekasih lama dia itu. Kekasihnya itu sedang mendukung anak dan kelihatan juga suami di sisi. Mereka bertentang mata. Namun, semuanya dah tiada guna lagi. Lelaki itu berasa sungguh kesal atas perbuatannya selama ini.

Begitulah sedikit sebanyak mengenai cerita ini (rasenye mcm ade banyak tokok tambah je). Setiap kali dengar lagu kak jee ni, aku sering terbayang diriku di tempat lelaki itu. Sejurus itu, aku minta supaya dijauhkan daripada menjadi seperti dia. dijauhkan dijauhkan . huh.

Wailalliqa' maassalamah.

.thepathofjourney.

Assalamualaikum.

It is about 30 days before I'm going to register at my new campus. All new UniKL students will register on that day but some campuses will eventually register a little bit early than us.

As I said before, degree will be way way tough compared to foundation studies. So, we must be well prepared mentally, physically, financially and emotionally.

At the new campus also, I am also expecting new friends and acquaintances there. Yeah, every we go, we will new people along the way. Some people have the opportunity to stick with the same group of people in their life. For example, studying in a primary school for the whole 6 years and studying in secondary school for the whole 5 years.

For those who studied in the same secondary school for the whole 5 years, they have the chance to develop a special bond between their batch mates, like what I have observed when I busybody-ed at my friend's batch small reunion.

My journey towards to the person I am now is a bit different than stated above. I went to three different primary schools and three secondary schools, as stated on the left panel here.

Sometimes, I do envy them for having the opportunity and ability to remain with the same group of people the whole secondary years. It maybe sound stupid to envy on something like that.

However, I realised that, by following this path, I have the chance to meet different people and observe how different group of peoples think. I may not be too attached to certain group, but at least I can get the chance to mingle along, and I think that is more than enough.

At the end of the day, I realised and believed that, we cannot expect people to approach or get along with us. Instead, we must first make the step. This is not a fairy tale or a movie. This is life, this reality.

Wailalliqa' massalamah.

.maths.

Assalamualaikum.

I have been using my red Pure Mathematics book or better known as 'comic' , as a base for my laptop. Every time I finished, I will clear things up and put them back to their respective places. Not forgotten the comic.

So, I will always have a grip of the book and it always flashes back old memories of my mathematics education since I was a primary school children. From learning addition to multiplication and differentiation to expectation. Yeah. It was really fun. I remembered how my Form 1 teacher taught my class back then. He didn't allow the use of calculator in his class. Other class can freely use. We were like @##@%. However, in the end, it turns out to be a good thing. I enjoyed learning new topic day after day. That situation motivated me to keep on learning (and loving) this subject until now. Thank you Sir Azrul Shahizul Nizam !

I also remembered the joy of representing my schools in various maths competition. It is undeniable that there were a lot of excellent students whom are way better in mathematics compared to me, but what the heck ! I enjoy participating. That's enough for me.haha.

One of the competition that I remembered most was the Sunway Math & Logic. I don't want to share regarding the tremendously hard questions, instead, the experience I gained there. I wasn't alone. I'm with my schoolmates. The four of us.

The main thing I like about representing my school is having the chance to meet other students (eventhough I didn't even talk to anyone -.-). I have intentions to start a conversation but it turned out, I was speechless. I just observed how my friends deal with it (they know some people there). I was quite impress (and a little jealousy).

I also remembered the chat I had with one of my friends, on the way back to my school. I wasn't really close with him at school but the short journey gave me the opportunity to get to know him better. I don't really remembered everything we talked but the issue that I remembered most were regarding religion and relationships. Particularly, boy-girl relationships.

As the person who object the idea, I somehow advised him the impacts that will happen. and indirectly ask him to change his ways. Our discussion wasn't in a serious tone, so he listened and did not get mad.

A year later, he went abroad to further his studies. After a few months, I was told that he is single and he has changed, in a good way.

It feels like swapping shoes.

Wailalliqa' maassalamah.

.disabled.

Assalamualaikum.

A few weeks ago, my feet weren't really okay. They were swollen. I always injured myself when I played basketball at KMKN. I kept on playing even though I knew that my feet are not well recovered. I put on bandages and pretend nothing happened. However, the pain continue to exist and I can barely walk properly.

A week after I finished from KMKN, I went to a massage outlet at SACC with my mother and my eldest brother. I was really excited to go there. Imagine, how relaxing it is to have someone to massage your feet. wow.

We entered the outlet and the outlet assistant greeted and asked us, how many of us who wants to be massaged. We answered and she begins to type something on her cell. It is kinda weird because she didn't even have a look on her cell while typing. Then, I realized. She is blind. Most of the masseuses are blind. After 30 minutes, my turn was up. But since before that, the entire outlet made me think of something. Something I usually think of, when I was a primary school children.

By the way, the massage was great.

Wailalliqa' maassalamah.