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Assalamualaikum.

Greetings.

Today marks the 17th day I am here, in the land of the Scots. InsyaAllah I will be staying here for 3 to 4 years to complete another level of education qualification at SCQF Level 12 (or RQF Level 8). I anticipate this will be another kind of ball game altogether, different from my undergraduate years. Back then, everything was nicely structured, hence you will just need to follow the necessary requirements and go about tips and tricks from seniors' experience.

But, this time, you are in control of the whole journey. Well ultimately, you are not exactly in control to give the final YES or NO to your final product, but you are in control to decide your direction, to decide your speed, to decide what you want to achieve and when you want to achieve. Hence, making it very confusing along the journey. Your anxiety builds up as you would always have this feeling of uncertainty in everything you do. You keep on searching for something you are unsure of and at the end of the day you will just feel that, "this is all  a waste of time."

Dealing with the above is just one of the struggles.

Honestly, even before I leave my home country, I know that I will miss every bit of Malaysia when I reach here. This time it feels different from how it was 5 years ago. Coming here alone is one thing, but maybe its because I am too accustomed to living in Malaysia; staying with family and waking up everyday to see them; hanging out with friends, like almost every week; being surrounded by those who cares and are really sincere and nice to you (yeah there are some you feel like kicking them in the a**).

"You need to always, always remember why you went there in the first place. Why you took this step. What made you decide on this. And what do you want at the end of the day."

"I want to create. I want to help. I want to achieve."

Wailalliqa' maassalamah.


p/s: imyg